Saturday, May 29, 2010

Lucky Charms

I know I must let it go and move on. Of course, this is much easier said than done. In a couple years I'm sure I will look back at this time in my life and realize how stupid I was for obsessing about a man who now is nothing more than a figment of my imagination. But, for today I'm not in that happy place quite yet. I can't wait until I am and thru this blog diary I think I will be there soon.
Why do I obsess over this one? What is it about him that I can't forget? There were others whom I've long forgotten about. I don't have negative feelings towards them even thou we broke up. So then what is my obsession with JSR? I don't want to do a wife swap, yet a part of me wonders what it would be like if I were in the wife’s place. Why do I continue to torture myself over someone who has long forgotten about me and whom I meant nothing to?
Writing has become my outlet. Had someone told me I would one day be writing about a man I knew a million years ago I would have said you're nuts. If rainbows appear after rainstorms, then the light at the end of this dark tunnel is sublime happiness and sweet, sweet revenge.
I've come up with a few alternate pen names for me. There is Pumpkin Rose, my fake porn star name, (the name of my first pet and the street I grew up on.) It surprisingly has a nice ring to it. Lucky charms was another name, although it sounds like a stripper name. Super fly love guru, I kind of like this one, but maybe it's a bit much. Words for thought. Happy a great weekend everyone!

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