Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Life in Transition

I know nothing more about life or love than any one else, I have had my heart broken and I have broken hearts. I continue to return to the battlefield of love lost and found in hopes of finding "the one," even though I don't believe there is just one person who completes me, but I would like to think that maybe there is one person who understands who I am now and excepts me and all my baggage for what it is.
What was it about him that made me want more? That made me want to jump threw hoops to be with him? I felt like a teenager in love again, but I couldn't tell if the feeling was mutual. Yes, I knew he lusted for me, enjoyed my witty and often times bizarre comments, but was there more to this "relationship" than passionate words and amazing sex?
It could have ended then maybe it should have because now I expect more and want more. It's hard to tell where if anywhere we will go from here. Silence once was golden, but these days it's haunting and paints a picture of a life in transition. I wouldn't return if I didn't have to, I would continue with this fantasy for as long as possible.
Fantasy is of course the key word here, because there will come a day when the fun will end, when the paperwork will take priority over the passion and lust until then I will dream a little dream and continue to cross my fingers thanking whomever set our life paths on the same course.
This will most likely be the last post of the month and although not nearly as active as June and July it was in so many ways a life changing period, perhaps even more so than the previous months. Fall is creeping in and the crisp cool air and changing colors mark the end of a bitter and emotional rollercoaster year. We have all taken a much needed break from the daily grind to enjoy the beautiful summer weather and as the colder weather approaches I have a feeling our thoughts will once again return to rambling posts. Here we go again; another year, another lifetime, more memories, more experiences and many more friends.

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