Friday, April 22, 2011

It's Not Working

Break ups are never easy. Especially when there are strong feelings involved. As you may guess it did not work out for me. I guess his fears were stronger than his feelings for me. We are different people. There is no denying that. For starters he is Italian. I am Australian. We had different upbringings,different cultures. He is a scuba diving instructor and I am an accountant. He has said on occasions that we are from different planets and he can't see how we could be a match. I, on the other hand look at it from another perspective. Different is good. Different gives you so much to learn about each other. About life. As I have mentioned he has inspired me to do things. Learn another language. Travel overseas. See the world. To love myself. I look at things differently. I appreciate things in a different way. He has made an incredible impact on my life without knowing. I was always too busy. Never took the opportunity to do simple things like a walk on the beach at sunset. Sit and watch the waves and listen to the ocean for a couple of hours. Watch the moon rise. Listen to the birds.
I am not bitter in any way about this. As The Man has said on numerous occasions. If a guy wants to be with you he will do everything in his power to be with you. In this case I guess it just wasn't meant to be. If it was it would be easy. There shouldn't be an inner struggle between feelings and fear. This should be the 'Honeymoon' period. And because of how strong my feelings are for him I don't want to see him struggle with himself. So I have to let him go and release him from that. No matter how much it hurts me.
Aussie Gal

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