Things seem to be moving forward. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. My past and what will soon be the past helps make me who I am today. Each relationship is different. I have never thought that "all men are the same". I have never entered a relationship expecting (or believing) it will turn out the same as previous ones. Though, I have recently had interactions with people that hold those beliefs. I honestly don't get it. Some people just can't let go of getting hurt in the past. Until you really examine yourself, your values, who you are and what you really want out of life and love you will keep recreating the same vicious cycle of relationships that don't give you want you need and want and in the end fall apart.
So what if you've been cheated on, don't enter a new relationship and then be so paranoid that you look at your partner with a microscope and try to find things that don't make sense and accuse them of cheating. Instead if you have been cheated on, especially if you were cheated on by multiple ex's LOOK AT YOURSELF!!! What is driving these people to cheat on you, what is wrong with you, why did you start a relationship with them, why did you stay and what was missing in those relationships???
I personally have had trust issues in the past. I was a young adult entering relationships, letting myself be "chosen" by someone and then sticking it out way too long even when I discovered neither of us could give eachother what we needed. After a few of those I did a lot of over thinking, reading and writing. I then chose to not get over involved emotionally. I decided I could get most of what I wanted and needed without becoming attached which honestly was a lot of fun, but it led me to "the one that got away". I had found someone that truly liked me for who I was and he wanted some of the emotion he may have wanted more I don't know because I held back. I played it cool, I didn't tell him know how I felt or what I really wanted out of the relationship.
On to the present. The single dad that I met ended up breaking up with his girlfriend. Actually I think she broke up with him because he was honest and told her that he had kissed someone else (me). So we've had a lot of playdates for the kids, we've had sleepovers and we even took all 5 kids out the other night for dinner, video games, bumper cars and lots of sugar. Our kids get along great, they're all BFF's and us adults get along well too. We parent pretty good together, we've cleaned house, had a few snowball fights and are starting to try and learn more about each other beyond our children and parenting.
Things are good. He wants to know more about me, I'm scared. I'm feeling a little lost, my kids are my life! Who am I and what do I like? I know who I was before kids, and that girl doesn't exist anymore. I don't skateboard or longboard anymore, I don't go on adventures in the forest hiking up mountains to natural hot springs, I don't go to concerts (unless they are outdoor and kid-friendly and on a weekend!) There are plenty of things that I like to do, but don't get to do anymore. So where does that leave me? Am I just a mom, who does all things in the best interest of the kids and nothing for herself?
Hot Mama
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Second Chances
Wanted to see the softer side of me? Well, here goes a taste... About a year ago, I met someone amazing, spent a little over a month dating and enjoying every moment. It ended abruptly and I had no idea what happened.
(Check out the December 2010 archives for blog titles - Blackout and Another One Bites the Dust.)
I will refresh some of you a little: I met someone who "did it" for me and I mean in every way. I woke up thinking about her, constantly on my mind during the day, and before closing my eyes, it was her texts wishing me "sweet dreams". Of my last 3 years of dating, I have only met 3 that gave me a feeling close to this. And for those who don't know, I went on too many dates to recover the thoughts, and feelings she brought out in me. She was amazing (to say the least).. We went out many times, and did all the things I expected a true relationship to blossom... But one night it all ended! I awoke with an empty, lost feeling, and never knew what happened until yesterday. I, out of the blue (after over a year) wrote a email to her.
"Hey there.. This may sound crazy, but at this point it really wouldn't matter if it does. It's weird, but I still think about you from time to time. Maybe cuz I still have the Christmas presents I bought for you, or the fact that you're the coolest person/woman I met in a very long time. Either way, I hope all is well, and I'm truly sorry for whatever happened between us. I still have no clue, (and that sucks) especially cuz I was really happy with you. I just wanted to say hi, hope you're doing good, and it would be great to talk,if even only as friends."
If she only knew the struggles and hardships of even getting close to someone as me and her were, maybe she'd understand. But she is somewhat like me, we scare off easily at the beginnings of relationships. It takes time for certain words, sayings, and things to be done. If these things are done before the feelings are mutual, poof!!!! I'm gone!!. I'm not here to drag things out longer than necessary. So now it's a waiting game and somewhat like walking on a frozen lake until I know it's "safe" again.
So back to "what happened"... We went out one night, had way too many drinks, and that's all I remember..... Not even a word, text, or email afterwards. I was left clueless, and knowing she was more than a fling, I was crushed! After her I dated plenty, and never felt that way again, until yesterday. She actually responded!! I was like a kid in a candy store.. And now texts and coming back slowly but at least they're coming.. She told me, that I got way too wasted and after having to drive me home, it brought feeling of a horrible marriage and that she wanted no part of it. She was sorry for not leting me know what happened, but it was better. It was just as hard for her to explain. She was done with that kind of lifestyle, and it hurt her just as much.
So, sometimes we need to go through these hard times, and tests, in order to appreciate what's right in front of us. After tasting that feeling, I damn sure know I'm not gonna screw it up again.
The Man
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
(Check out the December 2010 archives for blog titles - Blackout and Another One Bites the Dust.)
I will refresh some of you a little: I met someone who "did it" for me and I mean in every way. I woke up thinking about her, constantly on my mind during the day, and before closing my eyes, it was her texts wishing me "sweet dreams". Of my last 3 years of dating, I have only met 3 that gave me a feeling close to this. And for those who don't know, I went on too many dates to recover the thoughts, and feelings she brought out in me. She was amazing (to say the least).. We went out many times, and did all the things I expected a true relationship to blossom... But one night it all ended! I awoke with an empty, lost feeling, and never knew what happened until yesterday. I, out of the blue (after over a year) wrote a email to her.
"Hey there.. This may sound crazy, but at this point it really wouldn't matter if it does. It's weird, but I still think about you from time to time. Maybe cuz I still have the Christmas presents I bought for you, or the fact that you're the coolest person/woman I met in a very long time. Either way, I hope all is well, and I'm truly sorry for whatever happened between us. I still have no clue, (and that sucks) especially cuz I was really happy with you. I just wanted to say hi, hope you're doing good, and it would be great to talk,if even only as friends."
If she only knew the struggles and hardships of even getting close to someone as me and her were, maybe she'd understand. But she is somewhat like me, we scare off easily at the beginnings of relationships. It takes time for certain words, sayings, and things to be done. If these things are done before the feelings are mutual, poof!!!! I'm gone!!. I'm not here to drag things out longer than necessary. So now it's a waiting game and somewhat like walking on a frozen lake until I know it's "safe" again.
So back to "what happened"... We went out one night, had way too many drinks, and that's all I remember..... Not even a word, text, or email afterwards. I was left clueless, and knowing she was more than a fling, I was crushed! After her I dated plenty, and never felt that way again, until yesterday. She actually responded!! I was like a kid in a candy store.. And now texts and coming back slowly but at least they're coming.. She told me, that I got way too wasted and after having to drive me home, it brought feeling of a horrible marriage and that she wanted no part of it. She was sorry for not leting me know what happened, but it was better. It was just as hard for her to explain. She was done with that kind of lifestyle, and it hurt her just as much.
So, sometimes we need to go through these hard times, and tests, in order to appreciate what's right in front of us. After tasting that feeling, I damn sure know I'm not gonna screw it up again.
The Man
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
You were burglarized?
Apparently my silence and lack of a response meant that I was kidnapped not simply that I'm not that into you! and so the conversation between Tim and my inbox continued with this message today. Mind you I have never spoken to this guy.
"Hey,
I just now realized what must have happened to you--
You must have been burglarized, and the only thing that horrible and wretched thief must have stole was your keyboard. I feel bad now you poor, poor soul... you must have been so traumatized just sitting there staring at my profile on the screen, clicking away futilely and slamming your mouse down in frustration multiple times while cursing the heavens that this had to happen to you today and that there’s no way for you respond to me.
Like I said... luckily for you, I’m an exceptionally perceptive guy. I mean how many other guys would know that is EXACTLY what happened to you with the limited information you gave me :) And since I’m also in the business of solving problems, here’s some solutions to help you get in contact with me:
1. Get some matches, grab 3 garbage cans, and arrange them in a triangle formation to set them all on fire simultaneously. This will create an accurate smoke triangulation signal so I can come over and find you. I'm like a modern-day knight in shining armor.
2. If you don’t have an active match account, you can text me at ***-***-**** so we can continue the conversation... otherwise I'll keep scanning the horizon for your smoke pillar!"
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
"Hey,
I just now realized what must have happened to you--
You must have been burglarized, and the only thing that horrible and wretched thief must have stole was your keyboard. I feel bad now you poor, poor soul... you must have been so traumatized just sitting there staring at my profile on the screen, clicking away futilely and slamming your mouse down in frustration multiple times while cursing the heavens that this had to happen to you today and that there’s no way for you respond to me.
Like I said... luckily for you, I’m an exceptionally perceptive guy. I mean how many other guys would know that is EXACTLY what happened to you with the limited information you gave me :) And since I’m also in the business of solving problems, here’s some solutions to help you get in contact with me:
1. Get some matches, grab 3 garbage cans, and arrange them in a triangle formation to set them all on fire simultaneously. This will create an accurate smoke triangulation signal so I can come over and find you. I'm like a modern-day knight in shining armor.
2. If you don’t have an active match account, you can text me at ***-***-**** so we can continue the conversation... otherwise I'll keep scanning the horizon for your smoke pillar!"
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
You Can't Be Serious!!
I reluctantly rejoined the online dating world last week and just as I expected it's only filled with 40 year old virgins and freaks. No wonder I'm still single. I haven't even had the desire to 'wink' at any of the men on the site, let alone respond to a message. Which brings me to the hilarious email I received the other day from a guy who I have never spoken to and after the second email I received today I definitely will never be speaking to.
Here's the first email. Mind you I have never had any correspondence with this guy.
"I like your style in the first pic u have up. The vibe I get is that you seem to be a person that seems to be pretty genuine and fun. I'm sure that's why I came across your profile, since they say like-minded people are drawn to each other!
Anyway I'm sure we could spend all day commenting back and forth about how awesome our profiles are, but I mean let's be honest -- the whole point of this site is just to get a brief glimpse of a person to see if there's a possibility of interest or not.
You might read that I do comedy or that I could make you laugh... you might have an interest in my marketing company or my philosophies on life, but realistically speaking -- I could be a chick for all you know that's just masquerading as a fun guy :)
I'm willing to show you that I'm the latter! Worst case? You might make a cool friend.
I’m Tim, I agree we should continue the conversation. When are you usually most free to chat?"
Follow up email in next blog.
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Here's the first email. Mind you I have never had any correspondence with this guy.
"I like your style in the first pic u have up. The vibe I get is that you seem to be a person that seems to be pretty genuine and fun. I'm sure that's why I came across your profile, since they say like-minded people are drawn to each other!
Anyway I'm sure we could spend all day commenting back and forth about how awesome our profiles are, but I mean let's be honest -- the whole point of this site is just to get a brief glimpse of a person to see if there's a possibility of interest or not.
You might read that I do comedy or that I could make you laugh... you might have an interest in my marketing company or my philosophies on life, but realistically speaking -- I could be a chick for all you know that's just masquerading as a fun guy :)
I'm willing to show you that I'm the latter! Worst case? You might make a cool friend.
I’m Tim, I agree we should continue the conversation. When are you usually most free to chat?"
Follow up email in next blog.
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Friday, January 13, 2012
The Marriage of Love Bites and Share the Love
So here we are in the new year! For all the pain that 2011 brought me, I
am forever thankful for the journey it forced me to take and for the
amazing people it introduced me to. 2012 is an opportunity to continue
growing and evolving and sharing the love.
I've made the decision to not make a New Year's resolution, but to be more
careful and cautious in future relationships. I've always believed that
passion, drive and determination must be the leading reasons for any
relationship, be it personal or professional.
For our new line of clothing, we employ the same boldness and honesty.
We have created a brand of apparel that speaks to both the optimist and the
pessimist about love that are in each of us on any given day.
Moving forward at Share the Love, a caffeine-induced brainstorming
session led to the idea of taking our clothing on the road and driving across
the country, selling apparel at college campuses. If you attend college in a
state between Georgia and California and want to buy our goods fresh off
the truck, hit me up at kate@sharetheloveclothing.com. Details to follow.
Moving forward at Love Bites, I've made the decision to combine my
greatest loves in an online forum that will allow all of you to become
more involved in our growing community. I welcome your thoughts and ideas.
2012 is not about reinvention, but rather improving oneself and learning
from the past. I wish you all a happy New Year, and, as always,
we encourage your input on Share the Love and Love Bites!
With Love,
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
am forever thankful for the journey it forced me to take and for the
amazing people it introduced me to. 2012 is an opportunity to continue
growing and evolving and sharing the love.
I've made the decision to not make a New Year's resolution, but to be more
careful and cautious in future relationships. I've always believed that
passion, drive and determination must be the leading reasons for any
relationship, be it personal or professional.
For our new line of clothing, we employ the same boldness and honesty.
We have created a brand of apparel that speaks to both the optimist and the
pessimist about love that are in each of us on any given day.
Moving forward at Share the Love, a caffeine-induced brainstorming
session led to the idea of taking our clothing on the road and driving across
the country, selling apparel at college campuses. If you attend college in a
state between Georgia and California and want to buy our goods fresh off
the truck, hit me up at kate@sharetheloveclothing.com. Details to follow.
Moving forward at Love Bites, I've made the decision to combine my
greatest loves in an online forum that will allow all of you to become
more involved in our growing community. I welcome your thoughts and ideas.
2012 is not about reinvention, but rather improving oneself and learning
from the past. I wish you all a happy New Year, and, as always,
we encourage your input on Share the Love and Love Bites!
With Love,
Kate
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
The Man is Back
Well here we go again. It’s been some time since I've written on here. I have totally lost interest in sharing my thoughts & stories, but I figured I'd write a little. At one time I actually thought that writing would help answer some questions women have, but so much have changed. It seems many just like clicking "like" on quotes, and most never even take the time to read the blog any more. I have always been upfront and honest and could care less of hurting your feelings. I say & do the things you're to scared to do or try... if you came here looking for someone to tell you the world is full of puppies and fairytales, your in the wrong fucking place!! I’m back for a limited time and not sure what the future holds for me.
I have grown to a point in which I have no feelings for anyone I date or meet. It seems more of a routine to me nowadays. The Internet has totally fucked me up. Its way too easy to say and do just enough to gain interest and get what I want. But let's face it; I'm not getting what I really want. I want to find someone with common interests who can keep things as exciting as I can. But why is it I can't find them all in one person? Let me give a few example dates: Meet, have drinks, get wasted, have sex, and 90% of the time say, "I have to work early, and go home". Next: meet, have dinner, and say "I would love to take my time with this one" and finally after a short period of time, get bored... or see they are the jealous type, and I make excuses and move on. It seems I can't just find one who does it all for me anymore!! It takes a few, and that sucks! I met one: Super cool, pretty, great sex drive, but no ass (and I'm an ass guy). Would it be wrong to buy her a butt, and some tits? Some may say that’s just so wrong, but hey.... I may just stay with her. If she only knew!! Then there are the ones I like, take my time... and when it goes sexual, it just isn’t right!! Grrrr!!
You may call me a dick, or say I'm superficial, but I like someone in shape! And who has a sex drive and knows how to use it! Most women want money, success, and a motivated man, I just want a smart, smokin' hot, barely used hooker type. I could care less what you have, or what you do... as long as you can take care of yourself. Also... I wont have a relationship with someone with 2 kids or more. I may one day want my own or at least have that option! These days women have so many things that alter our views, so we really don’t know what they really look like until it’s too late. (Examples: push-up bras, ass jeans, fake hair, make up, and clothes to transform their bodies into false lies) And you wonder why guys sleep with you once, and never again? Ha!! Now ya know! It was so much easier dating strippers... at least there I saw the goodies before I got em'. Now I got to blow smoke up your ass until I see what you're working with, or you blow it with too much lovey-dovey shit too soon. I honestly don't know how it feels to truly "like" someone anymore. I get let down every time! There is so much more to add to it, but I wont go into details. It’s just way too easy to talk shit to get laid.... I’m tired of talking shit!! I want it to mean something!
Is everyone so fucked up from their past relationships????? You may think I'm totally wrong, but lets see how many of you have been married, divorced, and have kids and still not with that guy. So go ahead and say I'm scared to get hurt, or scared of commitment.... and I'll tell you, No, I just don't want to fuck up my kids life, and raise new strippers, and girls who suck dick on the first date, because of watching mommy dating a ton of guys since daddy. Many of you WANT someone so badly, you lose yourself and you give up your goodies too fast!! And then wonder "where did all the good one's go"? Ummm.... he was the one you fucked after $60.00 of drinks and went home because "he had to work early in the morning" Get mad at me for telling the truth??? Please do!!
The Man
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
I have grown to a point in which I have no feelings for anyone I date or meet. It seems more of a routine to me nowadays. The Internet has totally fucked me up. Its way too easy to say and do just enough to gain interest and get what I want. But let's face it; I'm not getting what I really want. I want to find someone with common interests who can keep things as exciting as I can. But why is it I can't find them all in one person? Let me give a few example dates: Meet, have drinks, get wasted, have sex, and 90% of the time say, "I have to work early, and go home". Next: meet, have dinner, and say "I would love to take my time with this one" and finally after a short period of time, get bored... or see they are the jealous type, and I make excuses and move on. It seems I can't just find one who does it all for me anymore!! It takes a few, and that sucks! I met one: Super cool, pretty, great sex drive, but no ass (and I'm an ass guy). Would it be wrong to buy her a butt, and some tits? Some may say that’s just so wrong, but hey.... I may just stay with her. If she only knew!! Then there are the ones I like, take my time... and when it goes sexual, it just isn’t right!! Grrrr!!
You may call me a dick, or say I'm superficial, but I like someone in shape! And who has a sex drive and knows how to use it! Most women want money, success, and a motivated man, I just want a smart, smokin' hot, barely used hooker type. I could care less what you have, or what you do... as long as you can take care of yourself. Also... I wont have a relationship with someone with 2 kids or more. I may one day want my own or at least have that option! These days women have so many things that alter our views, so we really don’t know what they really look like until it’s too late. (Examples: push-up bras, ass jeans, fake hair, make up, and clothes to transform their bodies into false lies) And you wonder why guys sleep with you once, and never again? Ha!! Now ya know! It was so much easier dating strippers... at least there I saw the goodies before I got em'. Now I got to blow smoke up your ass until I see what you're working with, or you blow it with too much lovey-dovey shit too soon. I honestly don't know how it feels to truly "like" someone anymore. I get let down every time! There is so much more to add to it, but I wont go into details. It’s just way too easy to talk shit to get laid.... I’m tired of talking shit!! I want it to mean something!
Is everyone so fucked up from their past relationships????? You may think I'm totally wrong, but lets see how many of you have been married, divorced, and have kids and still not with that guy. So go ahead and say I'm scared to get hurt, or scared of commitment.... and I'll tell you, No, I just don't want to fuck up my kids life, and raise new strippers, and girls who suck dick on the first date, because of watching mommy dating a ton of guys since daddy. Many of you WANT someone so badly, you lose yourself and you give up your goodies too fast!! And then wonder "where did all the good one's go"? Ummm.... he was the one you fucked after $60.00 of drinks and went home because "he had to work early in the morning" Get mad at me for telling the truth??? Please do!!
The Man
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Brutally Honest Liar
You all ready for more? I'm excited to hear about Love Bite's getting a makeover to be an online magazine, it just keeps getting better aye? Possibilities are endless! Alrighty... 2012 has started, I'm off and running with no shortage of rambling.
Happy New Year to all! For me, this is going to be another year of changes. All for the good I am sure! This year has started off great and I've been on a new adventure of dating single dads. I was so frustrated with the online dating, and stuck on my last relationship and the one that got away. So when I had basically given up and stopped looking someone else took a chance. It was an awkward meeting, our kids have known each other for the last year. Yet we had never met, until we were seated next to each other in a restaurant and the kids were so excited and wanted to have a play date.
And it took off from there. He seemed nice, we put our kids in daycare for New Years Eve night and got to hang out with some of his friends for dinner and celebrate at midnight with champagne. The kids got to have a sleepover and we got to continue celebrating. We had multiple play dates and the kids get a long so well, and so did we. But I'm so over it. He told me that he had been dating someone, he said it was "nothing serious". What a bunch of b.s. The other night he referred to her as his "girlfriend". It's clear he wants to keep his girlfriend, but have his own little play dates on the side. I've been in that situation before. This time I'm not up for it.
Why can't people just be honest?!?! I am honest, sometimes brutally honest. Unfortunately, those nice guys that actually listen and seem to care they really do finish last. I am completely unattracted to those nice guys. My heart goes pitter-patter for the man, who in the end will end up being the biggest ass of all. I've tried to like those nice guys, but I cannot lead someone on when I don't feel any chemistry. I have tried to have male friends, but I've found time and time again they are just being friends with me because they want to be more than friends. I'm tired of it, I need to either become a lesbian or befriend a group of gay men. Something has got to give.
I want the fairy tale. The one that I have always believed in. Though I have seen no proof that it even exists. I still search, I have faith. It's like video poker, you get so close to winning big and every time you loose you just "know" your going to win the next time. So you keep playing on a vicious cycle, believing that next time you'll be the one. Sometimes you win a little, it keeps you going believing and feeling stronger. Other times just hearing about someone else winning gives you faith that it's still out there and that your time just hasn't come yet.
I am caught in the middle somewhere. It all seems endless, dark and empty. Though I am still faithful to this elusive ideal, I feel hopeless right now. So, again I will set focus on myself to retrieve my inner happiness. I love myself and who I am whole heartedly. I like to feel that I let go of the past easily, but everything that has happened is a part of who I am today. My heart has never been broken (though possibly a little chipped) it has only been made stronger.
Hot Mama (Love Bites Guest Writer #2)
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
Happy New Year to all! For me, this is going to be another year of changes. All for the good I am sure! This year has started off great and I've been on a new adventure of dating single dads. I was so frustrated with the online dating, and stuck on my last relationship and the one that got away. So when I had basically given up and stopped looking someone else took a chance. It was an awkward meeting, our kids have known each other for the last year. Yet we had never met, until we were seated next to each other in a restaurant and the kids were so excited and wanted to have a play date.
And it took off from there. He seemed nice, we put our kids in daycare for New Years Eve night and got to hang out with some of his friends for dinner and celebrate at midnight with champagne. The kids got to have a sleepover and we got to continue celebrating. We had multiple play dates and the kids get a long so well, and so did we. But I'm so over it. He told me that he had been dating someone, he said it was "nothing serious". What a bunch of b.s. The other night he referred to her as his "girlfriend". It's clear he wants to keep his girlfriend, but have his own little play dates on the side. I've been in that situation before. This time I'm not up for it.
Why can't people just be honest?!?! I am honest, sometimes brutally honest. Unfortunately, those nice guys that actually listen and seem to care they really do finish last. I am completely unattracted to those nice guys. My heart goes pitter-patter for the man, who in the end will end up being the biggest ass of all. I've tried to like those nice guys, but I cannot lead someone on when I don't feel any chemistry. I have tried to have male friends, but I've found time and time again they are just being friends with me because they want to be more than friends. I'm tired of it, I need to either become a lesbian or befriend a group of gay men. Something has got to give.
I want the fairy tale. The one that I have always believed in. Though I have seen no proof that it even exists. I still search, I have faith. It's like video poker, you get so close to winning big and every time you loose you just "know" your going to win the next time. So you keep playing on a vicious cycle, believing that next time you'll be the one. Sometimes you win a little, it keeps you going believing and feeling stronger. Other times just hearing about someone else winning gives you faith that it's still out there and that your time just hasn't come yet.
I am caught in the middle somewhere. It all seems endless, dark and empty. Though I am still faithful to this elusive ideal, I feel hopeless right now. So, again I will set focus on myself to retrieve my inner happiness. I love myself and who I am whole heartedly. I like to feel that I let go of the past easily, but everything that has happened is a part of who I am today. My heart has never been broken (though possibly a little chipped) it has only been made stronger.
Hot Mama (Love Bites Guest Writer #2)
P.S. Have you heard, our online clothing store is finally open for business!
In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, www.sharetheloveclothing.com is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Alive with fun and vibrant designs, each piece of Share the Love clothing stands alone, marked by individuality, a colorful appeal and a cheeky sense of humor.
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