My past, my JSR. I met him when I was 19 and he was a lot older. We were friends and then more. I became pregnant. I never expected to stay with him, let alone have children with him. But it happened. There was no turning back, decisions had been made and I had a future with that man. I dropped out of college, moved in with my parents and JSR went to jail (apparently he was a 3 time convicted felon, on parole with a warrant out) Yea me!
I believed lies from the beginning. I was young, ignorant, and had almost no confidence during that relationship. Until one day I realized that I had (with the help of my parents) raised and supported 2 kids, a JSR and was working full time while pregnant with my 3rd. I had the money, confidence and ability to move out pronto. So I did it. 7 months pregnant I did it. It hasn't been easy. I don't allow JSR to have unsupervised visits with the kids. We still argue. He still wants me back. He buys the kids clothes and toys. Sometimes he gives me money because he feels bad for the last nine years of my life. He thinks money will fix the damage of the past. He still doesn't get it. I was faithful to a man who wasn't faithful to me in any sense. Money doesn't fix that. I have learned from my decisions of the past. Trust is earned, not given.
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Sunday, December 4, 2011
Rest in Peace
So here I am, with a broken heart, thinking that maybe I should just give up on love, give up on you. Never thought this would happen, never thought it would be you the one I would fall for, feeling like falling out of place, out of life. Wishing that I didn’t have the heart I have, so warm, so full of love for you and just be heartless or for me to use it less and less each time. I know I said one too many times “no attachments, just friends”, but the “just friends” it’s an impossible, something unpredictable and something we can’t control.
Although I do wish for your happiness and would love to see you in love and with your “one”, I still refuse to give up on you and will still love you. Will still be forever yours. No matter what happens, I will be happy since to love, is to find the other person’s happiness your happiness. And even though it might hurt to not have you by my side, there’s no doubt in mind that I loved you with every beat of my heart, every breath and every second that went by within my soul and my life.
I don’t regret my love for you, or anything that you and I did, but for now it’s better to let the past to rest in peace and just let it be. Until we meet again, I will remain here waiting for you, and you will remain here as well, in my thoughts, heart and soul, till you come back, my love will proceed to persist for you, and will be locked up with hope, for when the moment comes to let it loose for you again.
I am at your nearest reach, just look over your shoulder. I love you, forever your friend, your lover and your everything…
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Although I do wish for your happiness and would love to see you in love and with your “one”, I still refuse to give up on you and will still love you. Will still be forever yours. No matter what happens, I will be happy since to love, is to find the other person’s happiness your happiness. And even though it might hurt to not have you by my side, there’s no doubt in mind that I loved you with every beat of my heart, every breath and every second that went by within my soul and my life.
I don’t regret my love for you, or anything that you and I did, but for now it’s better to let the past to rest in peace and just let it be. Until we meet again, I will remain here waiting for you, and you will remain here as well, in my thoughts, heart and soul, till you come back, my love will proceed to persist for you, and will be locked up with hope, for when the moment comes to let it loose for you again.
I am at your nearest reach, just look over your shoulder. I love you, forever your friend, your lover and your everything…
Love Bites Guest Writer
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In Love, Pride Doesn't Fit
In love, pride doesn’t fit, it doesn’t have a place. It’s like trying to mix water and oil, they just don’t go together and well, it causes to be more distant with each other. I know we are human, and well, we’re not perfect, but when living and making a mistake, isn’t the right thing to do is learn from it and not repeat it? Acknowledge what you actually have in front of you. Look around you, look in the mirror and ask yourself, “What do I really need and want, who is there for me?” Learn to admit your mistakes to be able to move onto the next chapter, the next journey and be happy.
Preserve what you already have and the people you do have around that care. Forget what hurts you. Fight for what you want. Value what you possess. Forgive those who hurt you and enjoy those who love you. We’re always waiting for something to pass by or happen our whole lives, and the only thing that passes by and happens is life along with love. We don’t understand the value of the moments we have, till they are turned into memories. This is why; we need to do what we want to do before it becomes something that we would’ve wanted to do. Don’t make your life out to be a sketch, since you might not have time to draw it once more clearly.
If you want to make a difference, make a change, or if you want something you never had; do something you never did. Everything that you are or ever hope to be is completely up to you.
Love Bites Guest Writer
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Preserve what you already have and the people you do have around that care. Forget what hurts you. Fight for what you want. Value what you possess. Forgive those who hurt you and enjoy those who love you. We’re always waiting for something to pass by or happen our whole lives, and the only thing that passes by and happens is life along with love. We don’t understand the value of the moments we have, till they are turned into memories. This is why; we need to do what we want to do before it becomes something that we would’ve wanted to do. Don’t make your life out to be a sketch, since you might not have time to draw it once more clearly.
If you want to make a difference, make a change, or if you want something you never had; do something you never did. Everything that you are or ever hope to be is completely up to you.
Love Bites Guest Writer
COMING SOON - SHARE THE LOVE CLOTHING!! In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, Share the Love clothing is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Preview our apparel @ www.sharetheloveclothing.com
Monday, November 28, 2011
Hot Mama
Alright, I've been a Love Bite's groupie for quite awhile now and have always looked forward to new Love Bite's blog entries. I have always wanted you guys to have a single mom's perspective on the whole dating/relationship thing so maybe I can offer that? I've had an awful lot of dating and relationship experience these last few years, I still believe in "the one" and I'm still looking or waiting... So below is a bit I wrote to explain where I'm coming from.
I was single for about 2 1/2 years. No boyfriends, nothing. I guess after awhile ago, I forgot how great it was having someone around and a part of my life. Then one day I'd had enough. I didn't have any guy friends that I was interested in, I was a stay at home mom and I turned to internet dating sites. I met one guy and knew from that start it wasn't right. We never spoke again. I got a couple emails from another guy and we moved quickly to talking on the phone, two days later we met. He wasn't the most attractive guy, but we had a good time and the conversation was great. So at the end of the date we kissed and it was amazing... we saw each other every couple days for the next three months, but there was the problem, I have kids and they are a huge part of my world. He thought that he was supposed to be top priority.
He wasn't right for me, and some part of me knew that from the beginning. I never had the urge for him to meet my kids even as we got closer and more intimate. I didn't see a future in it, and I don't believe he saw himself as being a part of my kid's lives. Though I do know he was in love with me, it was a selfish love where he wanted me all to himself and when I started noticing that I felt suffocated. He was 'in love' with me but not loving me as a person, a mother. I also worked full time and had other relationships that were important to me. Time apart is important, but it is a balancing act of the right amount of time. I ended the relationship because of how he reacted to the time apart and me explaining how I felt.
It was ironic, the night I ended it was a day before Valentine's day. I had gotten a babysitter for the night because everyone was busy Valentine's night. He came over all depressed because we hadn't seen each other in nine days, though we had talked twice a day and texted (depressed, seriously????) I thought it was ridiculous, we talked about it and I figured we could still have a good night. I'd already paid my babysitter! So he was still all upset about it and decided to leave, I decided to use my favorite cliche: "It's not you, it's me," and then I explained how I just wasn't ready for that kind of relationship (ya, the crazy kind where a guy is obsessed and calls/texts 20 times a day!) He left, and I called up some friends to go out. And that night starts the next chapter..
Hot Mama - 2nd Love Bites Guest Writer
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I was single for about 2 1/2 years. No boyfriends, nothing. I guess after awhile ago, I forgot how great it was having someone around and a part of my life. Then one day I'd had enough. I didn't have any guy friends that I was interested in, I was a stay at home mom and I turned to internet dating sites. I met one guy and knew from that start it wasn't right. We never spoke again. I got a couple emails from another guy and we moved quickly to talking on the phone, two days later we met. He wasn't the most attractive guy, but we had a good time and the conversation was great. So at the end of the date we kissed and it was amazing... we saw each other every couple days for the next three months, but there was the problem, I have kids and they are a huge part of my world. He thought that he was supposed to be top priority.
He wasn't right for me, and some part of me knew that from the beginning. I never had the urge for him to meet my kids even as we got closer and more intimate. I didn't see a future in it, and I don't believe he saw himself as being a part of my kid's lives. Though I do know he was in love with me, it was a selfish love where he wanted me all to himself and when I started noticing that I felt suffocated. He was 'in love' with me but not loving me as a person, a mother. I also worked full time and had other relationships that were important to me. Time apart is important, but it is a balancing act of the right amount of time. I ended the relationship because of how he reacted to the time apart and me explaining how I felt.
It was ironic, the night I ended it was a day before Valentine's day. I had gotten a babysitter for the night because everyone was busy Valentine's night. He came over all depressed because we hadn't seen each other in nine days, though we had talked twice a day and texted (depressed, seriously????) I thought it was ridiculous, we talked about it and I figured we could still have a good night. I'd already paid my babysitter! So he was still all upset about it and decided to leave, I decided to use my favorite cliche: "It's not you, it's me," and then I explained how I just wasn't ready for that kind of relationship (ya, the crazy kind where a guy is obsessed and calls/texts 20 times a day!) He left, and I called up some friends to go out. And that night starts the next chapter..
Hot Mama - 2nd Love Bites Guest Writer
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Letting Go
It's time to let go. It's time for your dreams to take over again without realizing that you’re just living in a dream of your love. I once heard, “Just let it be", and yes, it’s the best you can do. It is impossible to change what's written for us, and impossible to change how we feel about someone when we love.
I can only move forward and pray that the happiness I see, is somewhere near waiting for me. Meanwhile, I just live and enjoy the happy moments that life gives me every day. Always making tough decisions and not looking back, until the time comes for when real “love” arrives, I will keep on going my way, and only hope, you are there at the end of the road. You, my real “love”...
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I can only move forward and pray that the happiness I see, is somewhere near waiting for me. Meanwhile, I just live and enjoy the happy moments that life gives me every day. Always making tough decisions and not looking back, until the time comes for when real “love” arrives, I will keep on going my way, and only hope, you are there at the end of the road. You, my real “love”...
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Saturday, November 26, 2011
Don't Forget Me
Is it possible to forget someone or something you love so much? I wish it was. Although I believe that some people may be able to, it is really hard. I wish I would never feel forgotten, be forgotten, and of course, I wish I would never make anybody feel that way either.
During our busy lives we tend to forget that just a simple "Hi" can make a difference in somebody else’s world/life. And even though I rather forget right now, I'm not strong enough to do so. But I know that eventually it does happen and we’re all able to get our peace of mind.
If I ever made anybody feel forgotten, or hurt anybody, I'm sorry. But at the same time, here I am again, at your reach.
If you love me enough, or I love you enough, there will be no need for explanations; it will be just a simple "Hi" again.
Let's make sure we don't forget the love or friendship there once was. Forgetting the past and moving forward always helps to have a clear mind and being able to start over.
Love Bites Guest Writer
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During our busy lives we tend to forget that just a simple "Hi" can make a difference in somebody else’s world/life. And even though I rather forget right now, I'm not strong enough to do so. But I know that eventually it does happen and we’re all able to get our peace of mind.
If I ever made anybody feel forgotten, or hurt anybody, I'm sorry. But at the same time, here I am again, at your reach.
If you love me enough, or I love you enough, there will be no need for explanations; it will be just a simple "Hi" again.
Let's make sure we don't forget the love or friendship there once was. Forgetting the past and moving forward always helps to have a clear mind and being able to start over.
Love Bites Guest Writer
COMING SOON - SHARE THE LOVE CLOTHING!! In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, Share the Love clothing is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Preview our apparel @ www.sharetheloveclothing.com
Fly Away Love
My heart has been broken, but my spirit persists. It has told me that even a broken heart can fly still. So in my sorrow, I will open the cage and set it free again. Go ahead, “fly”. While flying you'll learn to heal again. Don't be afraid to show your immense love, don't shy from it either. Let the world see the scars, for them to realize your vulnerability. But let them see, as well, how strong it becomes when healed, and how big it gets.
Life and the universe will set up your destiny; they know he is somewhere, waiting for you. They also know, only a flying heart will be able to find him. Look up and be grateful, for every day, for every smile, and for always being able to love. Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire; if you did, you wouldn’t have anything to look forward to.
Be thankful when you don’t know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn and discover new things, new feelings. Be thankful for the difficult times; during those times is when our hearts grow stronger. Be very grateful for the limitations because they give us the opportunities to improve ourselves. Be grateful for the next breath you take; for it gives you life. Always remember that only a fully healed heart will be open and ready for when that moment of “love” comes. Until then, just fly...
Love Bites Guest Writer
COMING SOON - SHARE THE LOVE CLOTHING!! In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, Share the Love clothing is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Preview our apparel @ www.sharetheloveclothing.com
Life and the universe will set up your destiny; they know he is somewhere, waiting for you. They also know, only a flying heart will be able to find him. Look up and be grateful, for every day, for every smile, and for always being able to love. Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire; if you did, you wouldn’t have anything to look forward to.
Be thankful when you don’t know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn and discover new things, new feelings. Be thankful for the difficult times; during those times is when our hearts grow stronger. Be very grateful for the limitations because they give us the opportunities to improve ourselves. Be grateful for the next breath you take; for it gives you life. Always remember that only a fully healed heart will be open and ready for when that moment of “love” comes. Until then, just fly...
Love Bites Guest Writer
COMING SOON - SHARE THE LOVE CLOTHING!! In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, Share the Love clothing is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Preview our apparel @ www.sharetheloveclothing.com
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