Sunday, December 4, 2011

Trust is Earned

My past, my JSR. I met him when I was 19 and he was a lot older. We were friends and then more. I became pregnant. I never expected to stay with him, let alone have children with him. But it happened. There was no turning back, decisions had been made and I had a future with that man. I dropped out of college, moved in with my parents and JSR went to jail (apparently he was a 3 time convicted felon, on parole with a warrant out) Yea me!

I believed lies from the beginning. I was young, ignorant, and had almost no confidence during that relationship. Until one day I realized that I had (with the help of my parents) raised and supported 2 kids, a JSR and was working full time while pregnant with my 3rd. I had the money, confidence and ability to move out pronto. So I did it. 7 months pregnant I did it. It hasn't been easy. I don't allow JSR to have unsupervised visits with the kids. We still argue. He still wants me back. He buys the kids clothes and toys. Sometimes he gives me money because he feels bad for the last nine years of my life. He thinks money will fix the damage of the past. He still doesn't get it. I was faithful to a man who wasn't faithful to me in any sense. Money doesn't fix that. I have learned from my decisions of the past. Trust is earned, not given.

Hot Mama - 2nd Love Bites Guest Writer

COMING SOON - SHARE THE LOVE CLOTHING!! In keeping with our edgy and bold message, and inspired by our love of Miami, Share the Love clothing is the sister wild child to Love Bites. Preview our apparel @

No comments:

Post a Comment

Think before you post a comment. With that in mind, we love comments, even the rude ones and remember whatever you write on here will live on forever.